Sunday Thoughts
I debated sharing this. I wrote it last night (hence, Sunday Thoughts). It's Sunday night, and it's raining outside - or is it freezing rain? I'm not sure at this point. Either way, it's gross and it's wet and I don't want to take my dog out for another walk - but I'm going to because I know she's going to need to go sooner than later. I'm sitting at my work desk, typing this out in Notepad. This is what I intended to do tonight when I came upstairs, after putting the laundry away. However I intended to write about different things:
- Possibly about my stalled weight loss efforts and setting up some new "rules" for myself
- Writing (vaguely) about times when my employer has made tough decisions and let people go, and I knew about it ahead of time
But those thoughts have drifted out of my head and instead I sit in silence typing away in Notepad about...writing? Sort of? I'm also thinking that I am in a tepmorary period of distress: I teared up when I randomly tuned to Monica and Chandler's wedding on TV before I moved to a different room. I never get teary-eyed about sitcoms (OK...one exception: Sheldon's Nobel acceptance speech hits the right notes). I guess I've been alone since Friday morning, my wife away on a business trip not set to return until early Monday morning. It's a short trip, she's been away longer. But I wonder if the decision to isolate myself today in light of the weather has put greater emphasis on that alone feeling than would normally be there.
I normally spend Sundays getting groceries, doing laundry. Well I did laundry today, and I did a lot of cleaning up in general. But I did my groceries yesterday because the weather forecast didn't look promising and I didn't want to go out today. Also, normally, when my wife is returning from her trip, it's not this long of a wait for her to come back. I still have another 8 hours before I leave for the airport. And I've been awake for at least 10 hours...that's a long day.
Or maybe it's just the dark season combined with the weather, and nothing more than that. I'm not bored, not sad or lonely, just restless.