Breakthrough seizure
Monday evening, around 9pm - when I would normally be taking my second dose of my daily meds - I had a seizure. It happened like usual - or at least that's what my wife tells me. I remember getting a snack from the kitchen, as well as a bottle of water and my meds case from my bag. I realized at that point I missed my morning dose - it was sitting in the case.
The next thing I remember, my wife was waking me up while I was lying on the floor near the front door. This is par for the course: I black out, and am very confused when coming back to reality. I have no memory of the seizure itself, I only know that it happened from my wife telling me so. And even then, it takes me a few minutes to come out of the postictal fog to register that yes, I did have a seizure.
Often there are physical reminders - my muscles are stretched to their limits and ache. Not this time. But I felt the absolute worst nausea and sickness afterward than I've ever felt before. My wife could barely get me off the floor because I didn't want to move; I felt like I was going to throw up if I did.
Eventually she got me up and hurried me to our arm chair. Throughout all of this I was still incredibly confused and loopy. I didn't really know what was going on. My brain just would not function properly. She later ushered me up the stairs where I was able to get changed and promptly bundled up in bed and fell asleep. I woke up a few times, which maybe was a sign I was back to "normal" - I usually get up during the night.
Tuesday morning when I woke up I was actually ready to go into the office. My alarm went off after 6am and I got into the shower. My face felt a little crusty - apparently I bit my tongue on both sides and blood came out on my face a little bit. It was nice to clean off. But I decided I wanted to sleep more and take the day off, so I did. After I woke up (and I really woke up - I was awake and couldn't sleep any more), I spent the day lounging around. I played a LOT of video games and updated my MLB franchise tracker. (There are two more games added to my Obsidian vault, but I haven't published the 2nd week update yet; I want to wait until all the next batch of games are there.)
It was enjoyable. I 100% did not miss going into the office. But I would not trade a day off for another seizure. It's still strange though; I feel some relief to have had one, knowing that the possibility is always there and feeling some measure of stress about it. But I'm now disappointed that my two-year+ streak is done, and I have to start over.